Thanks Keith for this article (and my work manager for sending me a link!) - I really connected as I too have been grieving the end of a 4-year marriage. And in fact I went to the beach and had same spiritual epiphany too ... though not with a mandala, but with a near-drowning experience when a sudden rip pulled me over a coral reef/through breaker waves and out to sea (visiting Samoa from my home in New Zealand). I was totally powerless over the situation and realised I had to let go. All I can control is my thoughts and feelings, no one or nothing else. And that was the emotional peace I needed to let go of my partner and dreams of our future. I'm very lucky to be alive, and grateful for the lesson.
Brianna, you are wise to trust your intuition. From your post, it's not clear if you mean you are busying yourself with logistical details, or focusing on maybe spiritually connecting with your birth process. If the latter, take a look at the work being done by Elena Tonetti-Vladimirova and her website Birth Into Being (you'll find it if you search). I've just learned about her recently, but her work resonates as truth, acknowledging the importance of the birth experience as the foundation for a child's perspective in life. Blessings to you, your baby and your family; that you find grace through the process.
Brianna, I don't think anyone can doubt that it is a hugely important day for you and your family. But it is also worth remembering that this is a natural event, and there is a chance that not everything will follow your perfect plan! It is important to combine your careful planning with an acceptance that, whatever happens at the birth, you will have brought a child into the world.
I am fairly newly wed and I am 8 months pregnant. I am working very hard to bring to life the kind of birth I want for me, my child, and my husband. Everyone argues that it is not important because it is only one day out of my life, my baby's life and my husband's life. I think they all fail to realize that that is what makes it so important. I can't relive that moment. So, I continue to work.